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Date: 2021-02-13 04:36 am (UTC)They should just share a room before Yuzu changes out of being a Shade and slams her head into the wall in an attempt to go through.]Because... I already told you... I like you, is that not enough...? I don't care about anything else, I...
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Date: 2021-02-14 05:32 am (UTC)[He really didn't, he didn't know why he felt like being together would be a bad thing. Or that he wasn't ready, or good enough... But he did. Was it because he had hurt her? Or was it something else entirely... He didn't know, and the more the questions circled around his head, the harder it was to talk.]
What if... What if I'm not enough?
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Date: 2021-02-14 06:15 am (UTC)[ She comes fully out of the wall to face him now. ]
It... makes me happy... things feel better when I'm with you...
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Date: 2021-02-17 05:35 pm (UTC)... Sad... [He mumbled out, quite possibly not meaning to say that out loud at all.] I-I mean... I- I feel happy too, or I used to but...
[He pauses for a very very long time.]
I don't feel happy all that often anymore... I wouldn't want to bring you down with me...
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Date: 2021-02-17 06:09 pm (UTC)For how long has she been... unable to help him? Unable to make things even a little more bearable? Actually, how long has it been since she saw Yuya's true smile, the smile that filled her heart with so much joy that even being stuck here could be considered bearable? ]
Yuya... you aren't bringing me down with you, I want to be able to help lift you up...
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Date: 2021-02-17 07:59 pm (UTC)That's a lie, I know I make everyone feel bad- [Or mad- why does everyone keep yelling at him otherwise?] You don't... You don't have to worry about me...
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Date: 2021-02-17 08:49 pm (UTC)[ She can feel her chest tightening, hurting, aching as she could only respond to these things with her words and not a warm squeezing hug. ]
Yuya, we get frustrated because... we want to show you how to love yourself the same way we all do... but sometimes we don't know how.
[ Her chest screams in pain as she braces herself to say what comes next. ]
If... if you really don't want to be 'together' with me... I won't push you. Just... just know that I'll always care about you...
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Date: 2021-02-18 03:41 am (UTC)N-no it's okay, we can date! [He doesn't want her to be sad...] We can... it's fine, yeah...
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Date: 2021-02-18 03:56 am (UTC)[ It crushes her to do so, but she shuts that down. She can tell what he's doing now, and she doesn't like it. ]
This is about you, and I get it... you're like me—well, no... I like boys and girls but... you just don't like things like kissing and stuff. I support you completely, there's nothing wrong with that... it's not necessary for love, and I would never force you to do anything you feel uncomfortable with.
[ She bites her bottom lip for a moment before continuing. ]
I... I want to be together with you... I want to be more than just friends... [ Oh god, what is she saying, her face is reddening now... ] but I don't want it to happen out of obligation... you have to want to be with me as well.
[ Gah... her face is red, what the heck is she saying!? None of that sounds right. ]
B-Basically, what I'm trying to say is...
[ Nothing is coming out right... ]
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Date: 2021-02-18 03:40 pm (UTC)Maybe he's just scared? Maybe he just has to take that step? It's not like he's ever dated before... He never even really thought about it until... hm...]
I- I don't really know what I want... I haven't known for a while... Because... [A whine escapes his throat, and he pulls on his ears, trying to use the pain to focus.] B-because I've never had to think about what I want- I-I don't know-!
[How can he be open with her, when he doesn't even know what's wrong with himself?]
I-if it was... If it was with you... I... I guess it would be okay? I don't... [This isn't like dueling- he hates feeling like he's so stupid.] I don't know...
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Date: 2021-02-18 07:27 pm (UTC)[ God, everything she's just said is crashing back down on her, but she has to bear with it. She sees him pulling on his ears and immediately places his hands on his, trying to gently get him to stop. ]
I understand... I know that you don't know. Yuya, we don't have to go further if you don't want to... I want you to find out what you want first, okay? And if you want my help in figuring that out, then...
[ She'll help him. She'll do everything she can to help him. ]
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Date: 2021-02-18 08:33 pm (UTC)O-okay... [He says that, instead of the bajillion other fears and concerns floating through his mind.] I... yeah...
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Date: 2021-02-18 09:22 pm (UTC)[ She gives a small scratch behind his ear to showcase some kind of affection. ]
And remember... nothing will change how I feel about you, alright? Take as much time as you need... and I'll do everything I can to help you.
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Date: 2021-02-18 11:42 pm (UTC)[He tries to laugh it off. Yuya was trying to not focus on this feeling like he was letting Yuzu down. Instead he's focusing on the nice words. Or anything else really.]
... Thank you...
[But of course, now he's not sure what to say. Where does one go from here? Is it too late to mention he liked the ear scratching? Hm...]
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Date: 2021-02-19 12:14 am (UTC)She should probably go. ]
I'll let you relax, okay? I'll also let Tsukikage know... or at least ask him to find out more if you want, okay?
[ Anything she can do to help... anything...
...she turns to leave the room. ]
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Date: 2021-02-19 12:47 am (UTC)[He's not sure why, but he... He feels like being alone right now would be bad.]
Can you... Can you stay...?
[Is he being selfish? He's not sure but...]
I don't want to be alone right now...
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Date: 2021-02-19 12:51 am (UTC)[ Her heart melts, how could she ever say no to Yuya like this? Especially since every nice moment she spends with Yuya is a blessing in and of itself. ]
Of course I can stay... as long as you want, as well...
[ She floats back over to him, staying close to him. ]
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Date: 2021-02-19 04:02 am (UTC)C-can you pet me behind the ears again? It's... it's calming- notthatyouhavetooranything [The last part almost sounds like gibberish.]
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Date: 2021-02-19 04:45 am (UTC)Of course!
[ Doing as she was asked, she reaches behind his ears and starts to gently scratch them. ]
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Date: 2021-02-20 08:36 pm (UTC)But yeah... All the tension just sort of melts away in that moment, he doesn't feel as bad...
The next second he fell asleep.]
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Date: 2021-02-20 09:29 pm (UTC)Oh how she wishes he could feel this same kind of relaxation all the time.
Still... she'll continue scratching his ears for a while longer as he sleeps. ]