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Date: 2021-01-06 10:32 am (UTC)But I don't really know how to deal with it. Between trying to eat people and learning how we're suppose to accept it? I don't know what else I can do.
[Because she is just a 13 year old girl. While she knew she was still young, it was times like these she wished she was an adult. Maybe she would learn how to accept these things better.]
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Date: 2021-01-06 07:09 pm (UTC)Yeah... neither do I, but... you've been here for me, so I'll be here for you as well, okay?
[ Learning how to accept it... it won't come immediately, if at all. She still remembers how Yuya reacted after his first time feeding.
Still... she can't just be the one getting support. Mabel being here has helped tremendously... so trying to support Mabel in the coming month was the least she could do. ]
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Date: 2021-01-06 09:30 pm (UTC)You sure? I mean, I don't want to be a jerk and just dump all of issues onto you. That wouldn't be fair.
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Date: 2021-01-06 09:46 pm (UTC)[ If anything, Yuzu's felt selfish for constantly having to lean on Mabel. She's the older girl, and Mabel must have her own issues. ]
Besides, we should be here for each other, right?
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Date: 2021-01-06 10:14 pm (UTC)She gave a small sigh.]
Yeah, we should. It's just...it's kind of difficult when I don't want to eat people. I know I have to eventually but it really sucks that I do.
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Date: 2021-01-10 05:07 am (UTC)<CheeryCherry> | backdated to January 10th | cw: painkiller abuse
Date: 2021-01-14 09:02 pm (UTC)hello?
are you there??
< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-01-14 09:19 pm (UTC)I'm here?
<CheeryCherry>
Date: 2021-01-15 02:43 am (UTC)where's here??
< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-01-15 03:44 am (UTC)??? ]
A-Are you alright?
You aren't lost anywhere, are you!?
<CheeryCherry>
Date: 2021-01-15 06:05 am (UTC)that was LAST mointh sily
im tottally fine
you gottta sttop worryng abot me so much
< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-01-15 06:14 am (UTC)You seem a little...
[ It's not often that words fail Yuzu... BUT SOMETIMES— ]
Strange?
Did you eat something weird?
<CheeryCherry>
Date: 2021-01-15 07:01 am (UTC)i didnt put annything in m mmouth i didnt mean tto
donT make tht an innnueendo ok???!!!
imeant paainkillers
dont gget werid ok cai??
[ .....wait, what? ]
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Date: 2021-01-15 07:07 am (UTC)I-I didn't mean anything weird!
Wait, Cai?
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Date: 2021-01-15 07:15 am (UTC)dont play dumb cairo
i mmiss you alott you kno??w
im msorry abbout beffor
itts nice to talkk to you
i wsih you wer really here
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Date: 2021-01-15 05:26 pm (UTC)After biting her lip for a moment, the next message comes through. ]
Riley, I'm sorry... this is Yuzu
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Date: 2021-01-16 04:16 am (UTC)whhat
oh
< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-01-16 04:25 am (UTC)Actually, in the first place, why did she make that mistake? Now Yuzu is really concerned. ]
Sorry... do you need anything?
You seem a little out of it.
<CheeryCherry>
Date: 2021-01-17 02:34 am (UTC)noo i dotn
its ok
im mjust
ill be fine later okkk
< Monkeyboard >
Date: 2021-02-09 11:03 pm (UTC)that network post... about how you said you liked girls? and where we... um... admitted to liking one another- first off, i wanna just say sorry, i think i might have taken the talk away from the main question, ive been feeling super guilty about it for a while now but i want you to know that i support you, ok?
secondly i... i dont think i want to date you, d-dont take it the wrong way, i still like you a lot! i just... i guess i just... i feel confused when i try to think of us... together- or me with anyone to be honest. cause couples do like... kissing and stuff, but when i think about doing that with you i...am i weird? i like you a lot, i always wanna be around you, but physical affection makes me feel... gross?i-idk- i dont know if im making sense, but you know... you know couples do those couple things... and i dont wanna do that, im also like... l-like i dont... you know how boys call girls attractive and stuff? i... never mind- this isnt making any sense i should just-
[He had the intention to delete it in that moment, but he accidentally hits send anyways. Screams ensue, followed quickly by another message.]
im sorry im sorry, please dont be mad, i didnt mean it like that or anything-
< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-02-09 11:29 pm (UTC)The heart wants what it wants.
She remembers those words fondly.
Basically... Yuya doesn't want to d-date her because... he doesn't like kissing and stuff? Well, he was fine with hugs and holding hands... in fact, he would often be the one to ask for them, even before all of this. ]
Yuya, it's alright... thank you for supporting me... you have no idea how much that means to me.
Secondly... so you, like, don't think kissing and stuff is nice? You think they're gross?
Yuya... I mean, I guess I do like those things, and couples in movies do those things... but like, we don't have to?
Isn't it good enough that we... like each other?
We've already been, like, hugging and holding hands... isn't that alright?
L-Like... so, Tsukikage said something to me... he said that the heart wants what it wants.
If you don't wanna like, kiss or anything...
[ Well, she can't say she's not at least a little sad. Considering how much it's been hyped up all her life, she's always dreamed about her first kiss... but if Yuya isn't comfortable with that, then what gives her the right to invalidate that? It's not like she'll die just because nobody kisses her on the lips.
She wants Yuya to be happy, and if kissing makes him unhappy... then the answer was simple. ]
I-If we do date... or if we become a couple... isn't it fine if we just like... hug and hold hands and just... be close to each other?
[ Cuddles, she wants cuddles. ]
< Monkeyboard >
Date: 2021-02-09 11:34 pm (UTC)< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-02-09 11:42 pm (UTC)Besides, like... I also like hugging people I like, but isn't it like, a little different with someone you love? Like, holding them because you don't want them to go... holding them because you just want them close...
[ She's describing the reasons why she wants to be able to hug him. ]
A-And even like... cuddling? Like, falling asleep together on the couch or something... just being close...
[ ...oH NO SHE'S RAMBLED ABOUT HER OWN ROMANTIC FANTASIES—quick, backpedal! ]
I-I mean like, only hypothetically, you know? And like, if you're uncomfortable with it of course not but...
[ WHY IS SHE THE WAY THAT SHE IS... she's in full blush mode (dark pink) and ready to crawl in a hole and never see the light of day again... well, technically she is inside a hill right now. ]
< Monkeyboard >
Date: 2021-02-10 12:12 am (UTC)... do you... want to be together then? idk im- kind of getting more confused... if you dont have to kiss the one you love then... ah- idk-its confusing... i just wanna not feel embarrassed all the time... its been like that since ive told you- and i dont wanna be avoiding you anymore....
< SongDiva >
Date: 2021-02-10 12:22 am (UTC)I-I mean... it's alright to be embarrassed! I get pretty embarrassed as well but... I'm still happy whenever I'm with you...
Just because kissing grosses you out... why should that mean we can't be together if we both like each other...?